STRESSED UP!!
it has realli been a stressful week and it has finalli dawn to mi that im realli not putting in enough efforts..
n im starting to be afraid..
afraid of the O's
afraid of the time getting nearer to O's each day
afraid that i flunk my O's
afraid that i did below my expectations
afraid of the results i would gt
afraid of my slow progress
afraid of whether im able to catch up in time before the O's
etc etc...
there is just so many things to think for a instant i realli felt afraid when i gone home ytd..
im realli super lousy in maths and many other more..
and for once i had cried..
ok i know it felt stupid but too much emotions inside..
had to let out some of it..
after that felt better and continued to study till 1 am..
decided to chiong all the way..
decided not to be half hearted
decided not to be undecisive
decided to work extra doubly hard to attain gd results and i dun care what i do i mus gt the content in my head and that is the onli way..
found out that our class ppl actualli started to mind their own business and dun realli wanted to teach ppl de..
how can i improve in this state..
i had to hlp myself in the end..
even though the O's are nearing yet our class ppl are so slack..
playing around all day and in the end little was accomplished..
and i hate that when i failed to accomplished what i intended to..
which means my progress is super slow...
im stil indecisive about my poa ):
alright had to start studying again..
as i had already decided not to be too slack alreadi
i want my grades
i dont want to regret for not working hard
i knows hard work do pays off in the end and i do want to try..
(: